Today I have an older layout to share with y'all. I created this layout back in May (I wish I had the exact date). This was one of the lowest points for me in my infertility experience--after an awful disappointment in the previous cycle, I was trying a treatment plan one last time before moving on to the "big guns." I was scared, and frustrated, and to be honest, angry.
One day during that month I felt peaceful. I felt suddenly sure that G-d was with me, that things would work out in the end, and that He would give me the strength I needed to get to that point. I created this layout on that day, to keep my spirits up when my sense of security faded. I used happy colors (my favorite Studio Calico kit of all time, Lawn Party), and created this layout, which may not win any design awards, but which I will always love. The gray background felt calming to me, exactly how I wanted the layout to feel.
I wrote journaling that meant something to me, and creating the layout just made me happy.
I had no idea that this was the month I would get pregnant. I would not find out the news until several weeks later in June, but it was in May of 2011 that my miracle finally came.
Months later, I decided the layout deserved a repeat. I used the same title, and put together a design that made me happy.
Don't be afraid to scrapbook the sad stuff--because one day, when things turn around, it will always remind you of how lucky you are, and how quickly life can change for the better.
One of the hardest aspects of infertility is how isolating it can be. According to Resolve (a great IF resource, by the way), 1 out of 8 couples in the world experience infertility. Yet it still feels so lonely.
I know that many of you have been down this road, and still more of you are waiting for your day to come. If you have an infertility story you feel comfortable sharing, please leave it in a comment or link me up to your blog (I will post links in a future post). You'd be surprised how much sharing YOUR story can help others.
Wishing you a happy Sunday, everyone, with lots of dreams come true.
A note on the giveaway--we have a new winner for Box #2! It is.......Tiffany Davis! Shoot me an email and I will get your package out to you:)
Tiffany DavisJan 21, 2012 06:36 PM
Yay! I've followed your blog for almost a year now. tiffanydenisedavis@gmail.com. :)
Both are beautiful, Keshet! How wonderful to have it all recorded. :)
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing these, Keshet :)
ReplyDeleteBeautiful story. Beautiful pages. Beautiful reminder, Keshet xxx
ReplyDeletePraying for a positive result for you both...
ReplyDeleteLove those little flags...they are so sweet!
These are beautiful, Keshet.
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ReplyDeleteHere's a link to a part of my infertility journey. One I recently blogged, it was my "coming out" blog entry. And it felt SO good to get it out there. So good.
ReplyDeletehttp://www.lisastein.com/2011/12/blog-your-heart.html
Beautiful layouts and story. We tried for four years to conceive our daughter. We went through seven months of clom after two years of nothing with no success. We took a break which became a long break as my mother became ill and died during this time. When all the dust settled from that we took a holiday and decided we were ready to try again. We went back to the specialist who wanted us to try three more months of clom before heading onto IVF. He gave us all the meds and we just had to wait for the next cycle to start. We waited expectantly for the next cycle but it did not start. Three tests later and we were indeed pregnant. I thnk perhaps because we knew that we were goingto see the specialist we just were a lot more relaxed about everything while we waited for our appointment. Miss Scarlett was certainly worth the wait.
ReplyDeletelove that you scrap the good and the bad!
ReplyDeleteSo beautiful, Keshet. I love your thoughts and how you re-used a title that bears repeating... because He truly is so good. :)
ReplyDeleteGreat post and LO's! Thank you for sharing!
ReplyDeleteLovely!!! We drove by the same road, you know that right? H is such a blessing from G-d!! She is worth the wait, and this year we are on baby project #2. I wish u all the best with your bunny, the day is getting closer and am so excited and joyful for you. Hugs from me and Hannah girl.
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ReplyDeleteI always feel guilty claiming the infertility thing - I guess I am more sub-fertile than infertile. I have PCOS which I discovered when I came off the pill so we could try and promptly had a 3 month cycle. Technically, we tried for well over a year but I got pregnant my first cycle of clomid with IUI after being on metformin for 6 months. We didn't have any problems conceiving DS #2 - probably because I had been back on metformin for a solid year. I am remarkably lucky that treatments worked so quickly for me. But, I still remember the fear that I would never be a mother and the pain of it being my "fault" (totally irrational and dumb but pretty typical from what I've seen). From my limited experience (or maybe because I am older now and therefore my friends are too), it seems like it is way more than 1:8 couples. I always rejoice when I hear of someone getting to "the other side". I about cried with joy when Angie Lucas adopted her daughter and I was thrilled out of my gourd for you when you let the bunny out of the bag :P Thank for sharing -I hope it will help someone to realize they are not alone
ReplyDeleteyou express yourself so well. you have a wonderful smile too!
ReplyDeleteThese layouts gave me goose bumps. He is good!!!
ReplyDeleteBoth LO's are lovely. Indeed, He is good.
ReplyDeleteIt took me years to get pregnant. Just when I thought it would never happen, it did! Seems like that's the way things usually go in life, isn't it? :)
Lovely pages! Some of my most favorite layouts are those that document a sad or difficult time. I love looking back on them and being thankful for all of it. Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteThese 2 layouts and this post just put the biggest smile on my face and in my heart! I am SOOOOOO happy for you:) (((HUGS))) and thanks for always inspiring me.
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